De Novo

De Novo = Starting afresh

So... we broke up in the end, suprisingly im not half as upset as i thought i would be, maybe its the fact it had been coming and i had got all that crying over with before it even hit. Were going to remain friends though, we are probably the only 2 who like the stuff we do without finding each other weird lol. I am so happy we will remain in each others lives in a more positive way. Its sad whats happened but also good:)

Im feeling really positive lately. Starting uni, more focus on my goals and my dreams and i have a great drive to find what i want from a job. Although that one aspect of my life hasnt worked out i have the determination to work on the rest with a new found passion.

I have been redecorating the living room, it was this horrid mushroom brown the landlady had done about 8 years ago, i have gone for a fresh crisp white and a light blue called Oxygen, im hoping to get the kitchen and bathroom done too. The kids have been great helping out altho very messy haha.

I have been watching Sex and the City, i was never into it only saw a few episodes but i watched the movie and really enjoyed it so i have downloaded all 6 series and i am half way through the 2nd one now, i didnt realise how funny it was.

Well anyways thats all for now cant wait for September to start Uni and start writing articles in the CND magazine that will get published. Woop Woop.

Bleh

I wish i could think straight ARGH!

I was thinking maybe i should suggest some time apart give us time to breathe without ending everything. Maybe, just maybe then we can start to figure out where we go from here, what we want as a couple and what we want as individuals. I wish there was a book or person you could go to to tell you what your decisions should be when its impossible to make them yourself.

Gonna start reading a book tonight called Size Matters by Judy Astley.. i could use some fantasy time!!...

Not all is as it seems

So...things are not so great right now, but i will get to that part in a minute. First of all it looks like i will be going back to uni in a mth to do the criminology masters which is great, doing it part time over 2 years so it wont affect my job hunting or victim support work. Now to the crappy part.. me and my boyfriend arnt getting on so well, not sure if were together or not, mainly not sure if he wants to be with me, he feels we probably wont have a future together as he doesnt really wanna think about it which its crap for me cause i thought after 2 yrs he would know. Im not looking for any commitment like moving in together or marriage, just to simply know we are going somewhere together. So at this moment i have many things to decide... do i break my own heart now or let him break it later :(
My head is truely up my ass on this one...i love him but i cant force him to want to be with me and im not going to wait another 2 yrs for him to figure it out

I think i need some TLC, Girly films and chocie to get me through the next few days!

xx

Catch Up....

Hey Hey.

Well what have i been up too since i last posted?... Well to start with my boyfriend came over from Denmark and we had a lovely time. The weather was great and we spent lots of time at the beach getting so burnt we looked like lobsters hehe and we went to the cinema to watch the new Transformers movie ( number 2) it was really good.

Since he went back home i have been looking at jobs in Canada and doing research into living and working there, i think its going to take me a long time to figure it all out.

I joined an organisation called CND which campaign for nuclear disarmament, i also have wrote some letters to my MP about the issue.

The children are on holiday now from school, we went to the Sea Life Centre the other day to see the sharks and things, the weather was really rubbish but we had a nice day, at least those 2 did anyway. The moon Jelly fish and Seahorses are so cute!

I have been catching up on films i have not seen but have wanted too : Van Wilder 1 & 2, Bride Wars, Journey to the Centre of the Earth and some others. I watched Haunting in Conneticut today apparently based on a true story, i thought it was really good.

Thats about it really! :)

Meh!

Oh My God!.. well if its not one thing its another. My pc has gone caput, thought it was a prob with the power supply but apparently its not so now we think its the Mobo, hopefully my bf can fix it when he comes over a week on Monday woop woop.

Got an action packed week o stuff i need to be doing, work is a little bit busy at the mo and i have stuff to do before he comes over. Hopefully gonna get my hair done next week too, im thinking of going lighter honey blonde maybe.

I recently joined twitter but i dont seen to do much with it lol, this is my twitter page

www.twitter.com/fluttermouse i also have a facebook page which i use a lot more regularly which is www.facebook.com/fluttermouse

Anyways thats all i have to update for now :)

Finally..

YAY.. i finally got my certificate from my degree course.. its only taken nearly a yr after finishing it lol. This means i can now finally apply for jobs without them questioning the validity of whether i actually went to uni or not, because we all would lie about that ofc!! bloody idiots!!!

Other good news is my BF is coming over in a couple of weeks, he lives in DK so we dont get to see each other much, just every 2/3 mths depending on work/money etc etc, its gonna be ncie to see him he doesnt come over here as much as i go over there. So i am planning a fun filled week i cant wait.

I went to Middlesbrough Music live last weekend it wasnt bad but it was awesome to see all my uni friends it had been a while so it was nice to catch up and have a bitch about how shitty our lives can be hehe.

Greenfest was cancelled so i didnt get a chance to go to it, im hoping they have other events i can partake in which would be awesome..

Anyways thats my life recently! :)

Disbelief

Ok so i recently registered on the Greenpeace website, i had been interested in this sort of thing for sometime. Upon registering i went on to read about current events and crisis etc. I came across something which i just didnt know about and which got me in complete disbelief. I cannot believe that our government would consider replacing the Trident nuclear weapons system, i mean not only is this a complete hazard to our country but it is breaking the commitments set out in the Kyoto Protocol. We shouldnt even have nuclear weapons never mind be thinking about replacing our current ones with new ones even more so with the current cash crisis.
Building new ones will in fact cost us millions upon millions of pounds which could be spent in other ways to help us as a country get out of our mess and improve in other areas...such as for example our NHS system.

What sort of example are we setting our children and our childrens children by having such a dangerous weapon around? Having access to this sort of thing will only encourage other countries to think they can also have one, i mean why on earth would a country listen to the hypocrits of another country who own nuclear weapons when telling that other country they cannot.

It only takes one madman to cause a huge disaster someone power hungry and mentally disturbed. Let me ask you.. would you trust a stranger with your future?